Monday, May 11, 2009
school has been so busy, im dying from the amount of tut and reports and project is like due next week!sometimes if i wonder if im going for the sake of showing im interested yet it's alr gone?i dont know, it sorts of gives me a sense of belonging somewhere, but i feel like im so far away from the rest after what happen, i feel like i can never catch up, cause something seems to be stopping me, im not sure how long i can hold on now that yours is slowly dying away also. it always seem so ironical that i hang on till the last, yet i dont give my best shot when im at it, im scared to give my best, because im afraid even my best doesn seem enough, and that feeling sucks. even if i performed wrongly, i'll give the excuse that i didnt do my best, but sometimes, my best is not enough and im afraid of disappointing others, and disappointing myself. so i wonder, is what im doing really what i want to do.
back to work for now,
come on, tell me. 7:18 PM
