Saturday, February 28, 2009
i have nothing else to do but blog, i seriously dont know what to do, im at a complete lost, i just wish i could close my eyes and turn time around, that's what i really need, a time machine, but is there really one?or a simple holiday away now would be good, fly to paris or london, stay there for a year and fly back, maybe things will be different, i just realised. someone who is good at studies and good at what he /she is good at, yet at the end of the day, realise how cold his life can be with no one beside him or no one that really understood him, is there really a point? even if it's just a single person who understands you inside out, outside in, i think his life would be a better place.
i lost my best friend, it is as if i lost him again, i didnt mean to hurt you in anyway, even if you said a simple word such as "hey", i would be able to fly again, but i took my own wings away.i have fallen even deeper.
come on, tell me. 11:11 PM
decisions can kill, especially those that either way, no matter what you decide will kill someone, the best, dont choose at all, i've decided, my decision is final. none.
come on, tell me. 7:05 PM
i dont know what the hell is wrong, i really dont know what to do, im just lost, let me sink to the bottom of the bath tub and never resurface, today supposed to be a happy day but it ended the other way round, but i saw it coming actually, i brought it upon myself, why cant i just learn from my mistake, maybe i thought it was his fault, but i guess the problem was actually me. i was just too stubborn or didnt really bother to change, but i guess i got to start somewhere. i dont know, life's a bore now that exams are over, holidays ain't as fun as i thought and wanted, i think i should really work no matter how the pay is like and all. now i wish i could turn back time but that is not possible. it's 1 am in the morning and im still crapping, i have no idea what im doing now, someone please give me an answer. the problem wasnt you but me.
come on, tell me. 1:05 AM
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
2 papers down, 3 more to go!argh!!!
come on, tell me. 10:20 PM
Sunday, February 15, 2009
HAPPY VDAY TO ALL!
i had loads of fun yesterday(: oh wells, im still super confused and things are like getting worse, i dont know what to do, oh man i feel like disappearing soon!exams are tmr!i cant wait for it to end!i shall go league now!i dont know why i felt like that at church today but i guess you're still that important to me, i must be strong and just let you go, cause i know i have to,
come on, tell me. 12:31 PM
Thursday, February 12, 2009
IM AT FIONA WONG XUE WEI'S HOUSE NOW (: we cooked pasta and baked beans for our vday dinner (: aww (: haha! though we didnt go out but we had fun!i felt so guy passing her the flowers, so weird (: i hoped you liked it!it has been forever since i met you my dear rabbit (: i can go find you everyday after school after my exams (: aww (: i will be your new escort!haha! now she's doing econs beside, me sad!haha, study break for me, but i hope i can do well for exams, seriously damn stress and scared by studies and other stuff, man life is tough (: thanks guys for supporting me (:
i love you WIONA RABBIT!<3
come on, tell me. 9:27 PM
Saturday, February 7, 2009
okay!i have decided to post!cause im stress and cause i dont feel like studying yet!i just woke up from my sleep!i ahve been doing nothing but sleeping, eating and studying, it's so boring but i guess it's worth it right?i just cant wait for my exams to be over like soon!i want to do so many things, like ice skating, dance class, go JC crashing and all!i really miss sn too, i want to go back, that's my greatest wish!oh wells, i have been studying in school the whole time, thanks to doug and his friends, it was fun!(: the western stall auntie is cute too, ahem ahem!i shall eat western food all my life!haha!kidding! well, i dont know what's with life now, just still feeling empty at times when i know im not suppose to, i jsut dont know what to do anymore, should i bother about it or should i just let life go by as it should, im quite tired of things, but escaping is not a choice, i only got to face it, but thinking about the pressure i got to take, it somehow stops me from doing what i want, and im not sure if what im doing is right also, will someone jsut give me an answer? im sick and tired of everything. Now with a injured back. no ulty for 1 week, man!
i love red hoody jackets (:
come on, tell me. 5:01 PM
