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Thursday, May 14, 2009

i've figured, i erased all memories of you away!and i've made new ones!you're just a memory and im very happy with what i have now, you mean nothing to me anymore ex bff but for now i love you pi (:

come on, tell me. 10:03 PM

Monday, May 11, 2009

school has been so busy, im dying from the amount of tut and reports and project is like due next week!sometimes if i wonder if im going for the sake of showing im interested yet it's alr gone?i dont know, it sorts of gives me a sense of belonging somewhere, but i feel like im so far away from the rest after what happen, i feel like i can never catch up, cause something seems to be stopping me, im not sure how long i can hold on now that yours is slowly dying away also. it always seem so ironical that i hang on till the last, yet i dont give my best shot when im at it, im scared to give my best, because im afraid even my best doesn seem enough, and that feeling sucks. even if i performed wrongly, i'll give the excuse that i didnt do my best, but sometimes, my best is not enough and im afraid of disappointing others, and disappointing myself. so i wonder, is what im doing really what i want to do.
back to work for now,

come on, tell me. 7:18 PM

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Name: michelle
Date: 5/10/2009
Colorgenics Number: 13752460

You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realisation of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.

You don't feel as if you can go it on your own anymore. You don't want to be taken for granted. You need to be recognised as a 'caring person' and it could be that you are searching to establish a relationship, not necessarily with someone new, but with that someone special who could feel the same way as you do.

Enough is enough - but the problems never seem to stop. They never stop. You feel, and maybe you are right, that the problems seem to go on and on and you have indeed had more than your fair share of trials and tribulations. But to give you credit - you bounce back time and time again - you stick to your beliefs because deep down you have that inner knowledge, that 'belief' system that in the end, everything will turn out OK - and you are right -it will!

As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress and this is a result of continuous frustration. You haven't been taking care of all your physical needs and it's beginning to show. It would seem that you have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate - someone perhaps whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to be individualistic - to stand out from the common herd. Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your ability to give yourself to open up freely but this being on your own, being lonely, often makes you feel the need to give up some of your strict standards to surrender to the general flow - to be like everyone else; a part of the herd. Deep down you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.

You have so many ideas that you would like to revitalise but you need to realise a stable and peaceful condition to do so. Once you can free yourself from all the aggravation and tension around you, you will make strides that may amaze you. You will not be prevented from achieving all the things you so desire.

man, this sounds like how im feeling sometimes!i saw it in flor's blog, haha! (: back to project work,!

come on, tell me. 2:55 PM