Saturday, April 4, 2009
thursday came, yet friday went and now is saturday!now i cant wait for wed to come!well today after sending him off to the airport, i went home. yes, i went home, for the first time!haha on a saturday afternoon!well, it was partly cause everyone were busy with their own thing, so i had no one to hang out with!but i didnt really mind!i went online and all, till i was bored, i went to run!yes, i went to run!but because of my stupid running nose and cough, it was quite hard to breathe cause my lungs was filled with stupid phelgm, so i ran awhile and went home to do the physio exercises dilligently!haha, im proud of myself!it has been like ages since i did all those stuff, it was so much like gym training, i hope i can get my stamina back and get back to training as soon as possible!i dont think i can go to KL opens anymore, cause i dont even think i can train back in time for then and also i think given my injuries, i cant make it to the team either. sad, yes i am, but what to do, old knights!haha!that's what i need to work for. but without an aim and going back to frisbee, im afraid i'll not be working my way up but rather down.
when i first joined frisbee, i was super competitive deep down inside, always setting standards for myself, and when i reach that standard, im proud of myself yet i wanted more, there was thirst for more. then, injuries set in, i lost my determination to push on. i did push, i pushed till my body gave way. my mind wants more yet my body gave up, the feeling when i knew i wouldn make it to ivp was horrble, yet i knew it was for the best and that i had next year. but getting to where i was before, i need even more motivation, im afraid.it's easier said then done
all the way mich, i know i can do it, i know i can.
i love you (:
come on, tell me. 9:04 PM